What’s a nice guy like me doing with Cancer?
Hi everyone my name is Peter and I have Cancer, to be more specific I have Stage 3/4 Bladder Cancer. 
So why do this? Write a blog about cancer, especially ‘my cancer’ that is a question that many have asked me, why share what is probably going to be really hard to do and maybe at time hard to follow. The straight answer is I’m primarily doing this for me but as you find out more about me as we go on I’m not a completely self-centered moron and I truly hope that some of what I share with helps someone else then that for sure will be a bonus. Some clarification before we proceed, I’m not pissed off about having Cancer anymore, I was but fortunately, some weeks before I started this blog I did all the crying and wall punching (not really!) that I felt was necessary or expected for someone that is given that news. Cancer can be very private, I kept my feeling to myself and suffered for it, it’s bad enough having friggin cancer but not reach out to for help, be it emotional or physical, is just stupid so I don’t do that anymore.
Some rules about how we proceed on this journey,
- I will not lie to you EVER…
- If I am having a crappy day I will tell you – sorry somedays cancer isn’t fun.
- If you don’t like what I write, sorry, go watch YouTube or check out Facebook.
- You can comment on all the articles, I will not edit any comments unless you are being a complete dick
- I live in Toronto Canada but I’m from the UK originally consequently I have a dry sense of humor that borders on sarcasm. If I find humor in things that upset you that is not my intention. Laughing, ‘often at myself’ has gotten me through many prior downtimes.
- I am not a writer – so if the odd period turns up in the wrong place I’m sorry. I edit on the fly.
- There are two amazing women in my life who I will mention one is my partner Divina and my daughter Julie, everyone else will be identified as Jo or St and Ma, just the first 2 letters of there name just to protect their privacy.
So that’s it really, that’s why I started this and hope to continue to the end of this journey wherever it may take us, there will be tears, humor but above all I want this to be an experience that I for one would not want to miss.
The latest article
And now we wait…
Short Post
My journey still has momentum, spent most of the day in the main building at Sunnybrook for a CT Scan, for those that have been following me the chemo is over and we are at the testing stage.
The CT scan is this big machine that looks like a big donut on its side, you lay down and slide you in and out, lots of noise and 
flashing lights. Mine was to establish what comes next, one of those ‘good news-bad news situation’ the good news would be that the chemo did its job, cleaning up any residual cancer that they couldn’t see, the bad news would be that regardless of their efforts the cancer has spread.
With good news
The next step would be to operate and remove everything, this would probably be 6 weeks or so after my results appointment based on what I was told when I first met the surgeon. This is my hope even though the operation will be life changing for me.
With bad news
I wish I had the answer to this, all I have been told is that “we’ll cross that bridge if we get there” not really sure what that involves. I’m guessing that it would involve more chemo in an attempt to stop or reduce the spread and my ultimate demise.
So.. Short post this time, to say that I’m stressed about the results when I meet with my oncologist on the 21st is an understatement – but in keeping with the attitude I have tried to keep during this journey ‘it is what it is’ and I’ll have to accept whatever the outcome is.
Later Peeps
Peter (&t)
PS: Edited on the fly as usual.
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